Letting go of my inner chill girl
The residual threads of my ‘inner chill girl’ pattern have bucked its head these last few weeks. What this signifies to me is the readiness to clear out the final layers of this pattern/protective layer.
I know that there are still people in my life who describe me as “chill” and easy to be around. I get it. Historically, I’ve been someone who went with the flow and avoided conflict at all costs. Why wouldn’t I be considered a chill person?
But the thing underneath that I so clearly see now is that a “chill girl” is code for someone who doesn’t advocate for their needs or take up a lot of space.
It’s emotional constipation,
self-abandonment,
distrust in myself,
the fear of being seen,
and a deep form of people-pleasing.